I’ve thought for a little while about what topic I wanted to discuss first. There are so many things I want to talk about that I find it difficult to narrow it down to one idea. So, I decided that an introduction would be best. Everything I discuss here is my experience of life, from my perspective only. Here I share my ideas about life in general. That doesn’t mean that I won’t discuss what “information” is out there. I am not a person to ignore even the things I don’t agree with.
I have, in the past, been accused of being a “guru-wannabe”. To those people I would only say this…each of us has a unique experience and perspective of our environment. To completely discount and negate one person’s experiences is to be blindfolded to the nuggets of insight their experiences and their interaction with you was meant to draw forth from within you. As someone who has spent a good portion of her life as an observer of her own inner world as well as the world outside of herself, I am hoping others will gain some insight into their own experiences and find some healing. I mean, it is what we do as humans…we share our experiences so that the next generation can learn from them.
I hold a Bachelor’s Degree in Computer Science. I am certified in Aircraft Assembly. I have worked in various restaurants, and I was even a truck-driver for a time. But for all those experiences, I am and have always been a musician and an artist. Those are the two things I always come back to when I think about what I love most. It has taken me 47 years of healing and growth to finally not feel so lost that I don’t know who I am at the core of me.
It has taken being destroyed, building myself back up, being destroyed again, and again rebuilding myself. I have been to the depths of suicidal depression on multiple occasions and have managed to heal through it all. I’m still here, alive and continuing to grow. I push though the hard stuff because I don’t see another option that is better.
Nobody is ever 100% healed; it’s a continual process. But, things do get better as you heal…that much I know from my own experience.